Sunday, January 10, 2010

A New Year..

I had the best of intentions for kickstarting 2010. I was going to be a better blogger, better mother, better wife, better friend... a whole new me. That didn't get very far before I realized that I may change some things, I may even change them for the better. But all in all.. I am who & what I am. There is always room for improvement, & I will do what I can to "better" myself. But it will be on my own terms, at my own pace. Not because another day went by, the date changed & the new year demands all those promises. Too much pressure for me, LOL! I have enough of that already!
I did make a change that will surely have a domino effect. On Dec. 29th I moved the horses from an hour away in Calahan, north of Jacksonville.. to 6 minutes from my house, here in St. Augustine. I see them every day. It has already made a huge difference to my worries & concerns for them. It is such a relief to have them so close. I was able to go out for a ride the other day & still had hours left to do other things at home. That in itself is a huge bonus! Brian & the kids will be able to be more involved too. That was the best Christmas present!
We got through the Holidays. This year was especially hard after losing Randy & Debbie August 25th. There were a few other deaths that were not as close, but losses none the less. It took alot of effort for me to even put up the tree, but we did it for the kids & managed to help them enjoy it. Brianne helped me Christmas Eve. & spent the night so she & Justin could be here Christmas morning. Chad didn't make it home. It is the first Christmas he hasn't been with us in his 23 years. That only added to the desire to skip it. I was glad to get it all taken down as soon as I could afterward. Maybe Christmas 2010 will be better for all of us. Maybe the economy will improve & life overall will be just a little bit easier. Maybe..
Hunter turned 9 years old on December 22nd. The twins will be 6 years old on Feb. 4th.
Time still keeps ticking away. Everyone will turn another year older, & we will all face another year of living... life without Kierra.