Friday, May 30, 2008

Jiminy Cricket 5.25.08

Jiminy Cricket 5.25.08
Originally uploaded by mommanana
This is one of many, many, many pix I just loaded onto the photo gallery from our Memorial Weekend Trip to Disney. Go take a look by clicking on this pick and it will take you there. I am still trying to recover from the weekend! I will blog more about it later, the pix should keep you busy for awhile!

Friday, May 23, 2008

Damn Mosquitos!

My "No Battle Zone" didn't really work. And to add to my already stretched ability to deal with stress, one of my horses, Lenny, is sick. Very sick. The vet believes he has the West Nile Virus. I had him vaccinated before moving him, but was not aware he needed a booster to completely protect him. After a long night, he is showing marked improvement and responding well to the treatment. The initial symptoms did not seem serious, but yesterday afternoon I noticed a major difference in him. I almost waited until today to have him seen, but decided I couldn't take a chance that he would worsen through the night. When we first called the vet they asked if we were sure it was serious because it was after hours and the symptoms we described were not life threatening. When they saw him they said that it was very serious and they were glad I insisted. Catching it so quick made a big difference in how well he is recovering so far. It couldn't just be heat exhaustion, or something he ate.. it has to be a major neurological virus! They are doing the bloodwork to confirm it because it has to be reported to the state, but they are confident that is what it is. Brian had just asked me the day before if they were vaccinated because a case was confirmed in St. John's County where we live. I had them give Barney his booster on the spot and everyone is checking their horse's vaccine records. Lenny can't pass it along, but he got it from mosquitos that are infected, so all the horses are susceptible. Even my animals can't do anything halfway! I will keep you updated on his progress.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Pick Your Battles..

It seems lately I have been fighting one battle after another. I can’t seem to get anything done without a fight. Then there are the battles we fight just in our day to day life. It can be hard to pick which battles to bother with and which ones we will surrender to.
I never liked to SeeSaw when I was a child. My brothers thought it was fun to get me going, really enjoying the thrill of going up and down, then they jumped off and I would go crashing to the ground, hard. They left me scared and hurt on numerous occasions. (And they wonder why we aren’t close?!) It seems simple to say "why didn't you just stop getting on the SeeSaw with them?" Because they could be very convincing and/or threatening. And I really wanted to believe they liked me, maybe even loved me, enough not to hurt me again. I still want to believe that about everyone I care about. I still don’t like being on a SeeSaw and yet that is what my life feels like. The constant up and down. The feeling that things are going smooth and steady, then the unexpected, jolting crash to the bottom.
And I think one of the things that carries over from that type of life experience is that I absolutely hate it when my feelings are ignored or trivialized. When someone hurts me and discards my feelings as though they aren't important. And it is not something I get over quickly. Anger is a flashpoint, it is usually a surface emotion that I can get over fairly fast if it is just something I am mad about. But hurt runs deeper than that. It also tends to turn into resentment. So try as I might, I am not always able to just "let it go" if it is something that hurts my feelings. I don't always get to pick the battles either. Sometimes I am thrown in the middle of it wether I want to fight it or not.
I am still tending my bruises from the latest SeeSaw crash. I am not up to fighting any battles for myself or anyone else. So I am declaring a "No Battle Zone" for a few days, wish me luck!

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Every Day by Rascal Flats.. to Brian

You could've bowed out gracefully
But you didn't
You knew enough to know
To leave well enough alone
But you wouldn't

I drive myself crazy
Tryin' to stay out of my own way
The messes that I make
But my secrets are so safe
The only one who gets me
Yeah, you get me
It's amazing to me

How every day
Every day, every day
You save my life

I come around all broken down and
Crowded out
And you're comfort
Sometimes the place I go
Is so deep and dark and desperate
I don't know, I don't know

How every day
Every day, every day
You save my life

Sometimes I swear, I don't know if
I'm comin' or goin'
But you always say something
Without even knowin'
That I'm hangin' on to your words
With all of my might and it's alright
Yeah, I'm alright for one more night-

Every day
Every day, every day, every day
Every day, every day
You save me, you save me, oh, oh, oh
Every day
Every, every, every day-
Every day you save my life

Today is Brian's birthday. Like me, he can't quite "celebrate" things like we used to. So instead of trying to tell him "Happy Birthday", I will tell him I love him and let him know that everyday he saves my life..

Just the two of us..

Brian and I were able to take advantage of going to celebrate a milestone with a longtime friend.
I guess technically Vicky was Brian's friend first, but I have claimed her as mine since we met before Brian & I were even married. She is the type of person who always gives 150%.. and usually only gets about 5% back. So Brian & I were not going to miss her graduation from the (Law Enforcement) Corrections Officer Academy. We are so proud of her! She has worked her tail off. It was a good time with her, her friends, and family.
Brian & I went up the day before and stayed out at a resort on the beach. (Thanks to Nancy and my new cousin, Cathy!) We tried to plan this hot, romantic getaway, but had to laugh when things didn't go quite as planned. We got to walk on the beach, see a beautiful sunset, and have some time just the two of us. He earned some "Points" going to the mall and to the Disney Store to catch their big sale at the stores they are closing. (100 stores in the southeast by the end of June.. catch the sales! Only at the stores that are closing.) We took his Mom to lunch for a belated Mother's Day and got to visit with her for awhile too. There was no rush and no chaos.
We met Greg & Lisa in Crystal River for dinner so on the way up we stopped and walked around Homosassa Springs for a while. It was nice to just be together. We don't get to do that often enough. We need to think of something to do/ somewhere to go for our anniversary. We do not want any party or any big deal. We want to be together and do our own thing.
And a huge Thank You for the ones we love who kept the kids for us. We could not do it without you!

Monday, May 12, 2008

Time by the Greencards

On the wind, I feel the warmth
Like the town where I was born
Blowing down a two lane road
It rides just like the one back home
I close my eyes and then go back again
I hear a song on the radio
Reminds me of someone I use to know
We'd stay up until the dawn
Now that someone is gone
I close my eyes and then go back again
Time is a river, rolling out to sea
I close my eyes and then go back again
Last night, I had a dream
About a place I'd never been
Shining sun on fields of gold
It could be heaven for all I know
I close my eyes and then go back again
Time is a river, rolling out to sea
I close my eyes and then go back again
I close my eyes and then go back again
And again

I seem to go back alot lately, especially dealing with Mother's Day. It is both a blessing and a curse. All Holidays and special occasions are. It is such a dual edged sword, and it seems time is not the buffer others claim it to be. Joy, pain, sunshine & rain all roll together. I never know where the spinning wheel will stop. Keeping busy helps, and that is not a hard thing for me to do.. so off I go to tend to the many things to do on my life's list. Hug each other for me and reach for the sun.. I am.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

I'm not lovin it!

We have been having warranty work done on our house since we hit the one year mark. That seems crazy to me, has it been a year already?! Today was the plumber because 2 of our toilets don't flush right, they never have. Then we have had major back-ups in Alexa's bathroom. They put better flush valves on them to add more water and pressure to flushing. Then they found a piece of cardboard from when they did the floors. It was blocking the hole at the bottom of the toilet. All those problems solved easily. The kicker was the pink toy stuck in Alexa's toilet. A square toy in a round hole. It was wedged too tight to get it out. They had to break the bowl and will put a new one in tomorrow. The toy was a little drawer from a carriage the kids broke quite soem time ago. It's one of those toys with parts and pieces that someone buys your child because it's so cute and they will love it.. I'm not lovin it at the moment!

My other "kids"..

Well, Brianne & I had an awesome ride with the horses the other evening. Although it was a bit longer than we had planned. We are stilling learning our way around and thought we could find a way around instead of backtracking the way we went to start with. No such luck, so we had to backtrack. But the horses did great and we really enjoyed the ride. It was much cooler than it would have been during the heat of the day. It will be fun to learn the trails and enjoy the horses. I was worried about Barney because I had so many problems before I moved him, but he was like the horse he used to be. It confirmed for me that the move was the right thing to do. I had some doubts and worries, but he showed me that I did the best thing for both of us! Yesterday Bri went with me and we gave Lenny & Barney baths. They didn't love it, but they did good. Then the ferrier was there to trim hooves on another horse and I got him to do Barney's for me and put new shoes on. Of course when I brought Barney back in from the pasture he had rolled in the dirt! They are just like kids. They drive me crazy.. but I love 'em!!

Monday, May 05, 2008

In a nut(ty) shell

Saturday Alex & I took Tristan & Alexa to Wild Adventures. All in all it was a good day. It was very hot and humid. I have some pix in the gallery so go take a peek. Alex had to leave early yesterday morning so he said his goodbyes Saturday night.
Yesterday, Sunday, I talked Chad into going to the stables with me ( he wouldn't ride.. isn't into the horses!) and then we went to the Fernandina Shrimp Festival. We met Terri, Savannah, & Hunter there. We ate some shrimp, walked around a bit and then headed home.
So here I am today, waiting for a repairman to come fix some warranty stuff on the house. Just got a call he can't make it, maybe on Wednesday. So I will try to get motivated, (haha), and do some cleaning. I am going to reward myself later when Brianne & I go up to the stables and ride the horses this evening! So there you have the past few days in a nut(ty) shell!

A new trick

I guess we are never too old to learn new tricks. I stole borrowed a tip from another blog. That way I can put what I really think, then replace it with something more tactful!
Isn't that a waste of time! special!

Friday, May 02, 2008

More Time.. LOL

It has been a busy and crazy week! The horses are settling in well. I can't wait to spend more time with them. Alex is here visiting Tristan & Alexa before he has to get ready to be deployed again. There are some cute pix in the photo gallery that he had done, click on any photo below and check them out! (You would think I wouldn't have to keep telling ya'll how to do that, but you would be suprised how many times I post a new picture and am asked how to get to the photo gallery.)
It is a quick visit so we have been on the run every day and am gone again all day tomorrow. I am hoping to get to the stables on Sunday. Maybe next week things will calm down a bit and we can get on a regular schedule. So I hope things are well in your corner of the world. I'll get back to blogging when I have a bit more time!

Alexa 5.2.08

Alexa 5.2.08
Originally uploaded by mommanana
This pic was a last minute fluke they caught when she was playing around..

Tristan 5.2.08

Tristan 5.2.08
Originally uploaded by mommanana
He is quite the surfer dude, don't ya think?!

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Nancy's Version of Tristan Walking

I have this photo in the gallery, but this is the version Nancy sent me. I love how the colors are so much deeper and the light is on him.. too cool!